Okay, I know this isn’t the prettiest thing to look at and I’ve already been yelled at for not promoting my web site and my business, but I really do plead ignorance.
As much as I use the computer to escape from my real life this whole blogging, twittering world is very new to me. So bear with me because I want it to look pretty, and I want to tell you about other blogs I read and maybe even put up a link to my own web site. But, since the 3 people reading this know me really well, I’m thinking you don’t need most of that stuff, yet.
The hardest thing for me is the photo and self promotion. I’m working on it. I am always working on it. I am one of the those annoying I-don’t-have-to-read-the-instructions kind of people. I like to figure out things as I go along. I drive the people who like to be organized and think in a linear fashion crazy. I cook without a recipe, tasting and tweaking as I simmer and saute. I can never repeat the exact same dish twice, but I think that’s natural. The tomatoes are never the same each time you use them. Your taste buds change with time and mood so it’s pretty hard to create the exact same dish every time anyway. I balance my checkbook in my head (which doesn’t always work so well) and I parent from the hip. My yoga practices are often more about what my body is feeling than what it says in any book or magazine. I teach based on the energy I feel from my students. My life is basically, a work in progress.
But I’m okay with it. As much as it bugs some of the people around me I think it’s the perfect way to live. Progress, not perfection is one of my favorite sayings. In this way I’ve come into much of my life by accident, but I certainly would not have had the rich, varied life I’ve had if I’d drawn a map in my 20s and followed it. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had a basic plan, that’s changed about a million times.
Okay, to be fair, it used to bother me. It used to bother me a great deal. I was so different from people in my life. I didn’t know what I wanted and didn’t always know where I was going. I think it probably drove my professional parents the most crazy. But I’ve learned to accept and embrace me.
Some people think I’m vague, I think I’m open. My mother-in-law thinks I’m disorganized, I think I’m creative. People think I’m loud, I think I’m fun. I guess it all depends on how you look at it. But however I am, the greatest accomplishment in my life so far (outside of my kids), is that I’m okay with it. It’s taken me almost 40 years to get used to the fact that it’s okay that I look, sound and think differently than everyone else. It’s better than okay, it’s wonderful.
And I want to say that I owe this acceptance mostly to the women I’ve known for a very long time. Some of them I know well, some I’m reconnecting with mostly through that crazy thing called Facebook. It’s the women that I’ve known 20 years or more that are showing me how wonderful it is to embrace the wackiness, the craziness, and the funny little quirks as well as how amazing it is to step into our power and be only fabulously ourselves. Because they do it so well, I am learning so much. Perhaps it has something to do with coming into our 40th year.
I know and am acquainted with an amazing assortment of wonderful women who can be open and honest, who are broken and tired sometimes, but who are fabulous every day and whom I learn from daily.
So bear with me a little bit longer and I will have a kick-ass site with photos, entertaining posts and lots of fun widgets. Okay, the widgets I figured out over the weekend.
For a bit more of me go to www.breatheholisticlife.com. It too, is a work in progress. But you get to see what I do and thanks to Sarah who suggested podcasts of yoga practices you can buy from my web site. Ah, technology. Once I figure out podcasts there will a free download or two and hopefully some I can make some money off.
And for just a good read go over to www.uppoppedafox.com, where Vikki is up for a Lezzy award for her blogging and reminds us that is it Freedom to Marry week.
Keep checking back to see the progress. Since I work the way I do I will probably try out lots of different things for a day or two and see how they sit with me. Feel free to comment or vote or which you like best. And try not to get to frustrated with my non-linear thinking working way. It could change suddenly or stay stagnant for long periods. It will always be a work in progress.