I’m opening up myself for change. Really. Not like in the past. I swear.
Okay, so after the Big birthday I decided there are things I want to embrace in my life and things i want to let go. I’ve been saying this for years. I thought I was working on it. Yesterday I asked for change. I told the universe I was sick and tired, I was ready and waiting, but I needed a sign. I needed something big.
My friend Jenn at Breed Em’ and Weep asked for a sign. She got a moose. She got a giant moose in the middle of the road staring at her. He didn’t cause an accident, he didn’t ram her car. He just stared at her and then walked off. Me? I lost my cell phone.
Okay, to be fair, she asked for a sign and I asked for change. And I get it. I really do. If I want to change, I have to change. My cell phone was two years old….at least. It was time for a new one, time for a new contract, time to mix it up. I can’t have something new unless I get rid of the old and frankly, I was holding on a little too tightly to my old trusty, shiny black, friendly cell. A phone is a phone to me. I liked my phone, but she didn’t do a lot. She made calls. And now she’s gone and I’m going to be okay. I asked for change and I got it.
But here’s the lesson….I can accept the reality of change and can learn from this lesson or I can keep getting the lessons in bigger and more inconvenient ways. If the universe feels it’s being ignored, it will continue sending me the message in grander and more obvious ways. I’d rather just stop with my cell phone. If you’ve got a mind like mine, you’ve already gone to how bad it could get.
So, I’m focusing on change. Not because the universe wants me too, but because I asked the universe to help me. I know that I need to let go to allow new things in. I know that I don’t always get to choose how the change manifests. My plan? I don’t really have one. I’m going to focus on what’s right in front of me. I’m going to think about what I’d like. I’m going to focus on what isn’t serving me well anymore. I’m going to think about where I’m going.
And then, like my friend Patty says, I’m going to paddle like hell for shore.